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I thought it would be a good idea to publish my monthly snapshots here on the blog. I hereby present it together with a reflection on my life. If I want to boast about anything here - it is not how wonderful my life is, but another success - how I feel in it. Until few months ago I was totally blind to what I have. I was frustrated, sad, helpless, convinced there was nothing more in life for me, that all was wrong, dwelling on all my failures, unrealised plans, wrong decisions. I was angry, very, very angry. Today I see in these pictures a really cool woman, who gets up in the morning, feeling happy and greatful for what she has. There is no more missing some other life, no chaotic chasing an undefined happiness. It is a good enough mother writing to you, a sufficiently intelligent and pretty woman. No longer "too skinny for fat ones, too fat for skinny ones", no longer "too pretty for ugly ones, too ugly for pretty ones". Today the summer, the sun, the storm are enough to make me happy, I enjoy little successes and even smaller pleasures. I have realised I do not need a Phd nor a career in a corporation to know my worth. I don't cry for travelling to faraway places, cause I know I will eventually see them. Today I know, that my happiness sleeps next to me, snoring and stealing my blanket. It is a sentimental cliche, but many tears were cried out and many bad words were said until but I realised it. The vicious will tel my to use quotation marks and sign it: Paulo Coelho. But will sign it this way: A cool enough Agnieszka says hi from her good enough life. Amen.
Nie potrzebuję już fajerwerków, przygód, snobizmów, wącham dziecko, przytulam męża, wyciągam ciasto z pieca, podlewam lawendę i z głębokim przekonaniem mówię sobie:
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I no longer need fireworks, adventures, snobisms, I sniff my child, I hug my husband, I take cake out of the oven, I water my lavender and I tell myself, deeply convinced:
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